One thing I've definitely learned during my years in this world is that no matter what life throws at you, you have to adjust and keep pushing forward. Almost every aspect of my life has had a monkey wrench thrown in the path I was going- wrenches that I would never expect, but once they they were thrown in my path I had to reroute and find another way. 

    I personally and a mixture between a  "planner" and a "winger". The planner in me has to have a blueprint to follow and a list to check off to feel balanced and steady. On the other hand, the "winger" in me hates routine and hates feeling suffocated with obligations and problems. 

     When my life is erupted with an unnecessary monkey wrench, I damn near die. I feel defeated by the world. I, very dramatically, begin to question my whole life: Why me? Is this karma? Who did I wrong? I don't deserve this! When I say I melt down, I melt "zowwwwwnnnn".

     As much as i hate when my life plans fail or are interrupted, I've learned that there's nothing I can do about it. What's meant to happen to you in this lifetime is going to happen no matter what plan you have. I believe we're all meant to experience certain things in life and even if you don't see there being a possibility or if you think that's the last thing that may happen to you, if it's meant to happen, it will happen anyway. 

     I can honestly say that every time my plans have been interrupted, subsequent events following that interruption, have proved to me that that hurdle was needed in my life.

    Towards the end of our first semester away in school, I had a conversation with my boyfriend. We talked about the highs, lows and struggles of being away so far (D.C to California) for school (one being how ridiculously expensive it is). As I always do, I brought my thoughts to him. My plan was, upon arriving back home I was going to resume my job, work and save money while doing online classes for our school for the fall semester and resume on-site the following spring semester. Sounds kind of solid right? Fast forward the summer, I have yet to find work, my savings that I was surviving off was depleting and a week before online classes for my school were to start I found out that the software in my the laptop I bought earlier this year was not compatible with or supported by my school's online program software. WRENCH. Two huge wrenches deemed my plan null and void.  

    The ongoing stress and frustration of me feeling that I'm at a standstill in my life still makes some of my days a bit dark, but I've accepted my hurdles for what they are: unchangeable. Accepting these hurdles has also brought some clarity. I'm working toward a completely different short term career path and I now have time to dedicate to working on this blog- that began as a collaborative effort, but is now a solo effort by myself. With my new career I can work and begin saving to move out onto my own- building a life in my hometown while simultaneously obtaining my degree here. 

     My plan is still in progress. The architectural structure, being my life, will be built. Whether it's with this blueprint or a completely new one. My only point is that even though your plan may not work out, there's always other ways to achieve your desired outcome. It's completely normal to have setbacks in your life, just know that you will get through it. You just have to roll with it.